if i want something, i should fight for it shldn't i?
wheres my fighting spirit.

nothing seems right.
and you just keep floating in and out of my mind.
so i try to keep myself busy.

it used to work.
whats happening this time?

i almost forgot how it feels to be on stage,
until performing today.
feels good, feeling high right now..
did i tell you i think meryl's a damn good singer, totally captivated today.

and while singing, i thought i saw d. in the crowd.
and i blanked out and started singing weird off notes.
but i probably was just imagining things..
not like she wld say hi if she did happen to see me singing.
okay. i've got to stop this whole dreaming day dreaming thinking of ex gf shit.

thanks to those that came,
especially mum n dad, whom hardly sees me sing.
peifeng, eugene, jamie...
yup, thanks, appreciated!

i'm getting lethargic.

i guess i'm just not someone who can do the same stuffs day in day out.

jazz rehearsals' taking a toll on me,

and i've been spending hours trying to brainstorm about new ideas for my choir.

gonna start a formation of a 6-part acapella group this coming friday,

and all this i'm doing it out of goodwill, for free...

so the students better appreciate it, or at least i hope they do.

have i told you lately that i care?

i've been pretty much idling around at home, other than the occasional late night 3am poker nights with the guys...

so here's what i've been up to:

other than teaching my vocal keyboard classes, and my choir, and poker...

watched SYC choir concert at esplanade with charlotte,

squash with javin,

football manager at home,

and family time with my parents..

i don't remember loving being alone that much.

but thats whats happening to me.

maybe its age catching up on me.

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met hsin that day by coincidence (or maybe not)

stupidly enough, i thought u might be there, so i walked back frm the train station all the way back to esplanade (where i came from)

and did i mention how one sms changed my entire day...

nv expected to hear from you, even though your message probably didn't mean that much to u,

but hearing from you in that message, seeing ur name in my inbox...

that was probably more than enough.

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meanwhile:

things i havent accomplished yet for the holidays:

1. rearrange my room furniture

2. repaint my room

3. learn my guitar

4. improve on my beatboxing

5. write more songs.

6. keep fit.

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which reminds me:

i'm performing at esplanade this weekend at the outdoor theatre.

do come watch! support nus jazz band :D