i think i'll miss pj choir.
and i only spent a few days there...!

makes me think back on all the cranky times when i was still studying last time.
all the staying back in school late, etc.

and now that i'm in university, i can't wait but go home as early as i can everyday...

i think i've changed.
i used to be wild and happening, and i'm always busy.
now i'm just.... homely.
like i've grown out of goin out wiv lots of different people and going crazy...

i haven't done a lot of things i said i'll do during the holidays.
and is it me?
or is the weather killing me every single day?
i practically take six showers a day... and i still end up feelin sticky after less than 30 mins out of the shower... :S

hectic week.
but despite the crazy numerous amount of things i've been involved in during the past wk..
i still feel some sort of an emptiness..

yes, i've met up with old friends.
i've been doin music, building up my portfolio, choreographing pj's finale.. making new friends and finding new fun with pj choir members...
spending more time wiv my mum and cousins
sms-ing and going online more often to catch up with mdc friends, etc.
but no..
there's sth missing and i can't figure out whats that...

so much on my mind suddenly.
doesn't help with the frequent dizzy spells i've been having.
and my constant procrastination to see a neurologist.

went to suntec for the first time in a long time today///

the walk at the basement brought back memories. memories of like... ten?!? years ago..
how i dedicated a message to dixie when we first got together in secondary school...

yes yes. i know what u must be thinking.
but no, i'm not goin to get into one of my emo spells again.

on a side note... i can't wait to test out my new recording rig...
its expensive
but i hope its worth the money.

i'm selling my recording PC cause i'm goin to buy a new recording system!

the PC i'm selling includes:
core 2 duo processor
emu 1820 soundcard (worth over 800 bucks)

it can record cd quaity music, with midi plugins, mic plug ins, etc.

selling at only $500! :)

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meanwhile.. i cant wait to get my new system... :)

all the way from france...

i logged on my email today to read a letter written by a girl from france...
she heard "don't do it again", the song i wrote, on youtube and felt very touched and connected to it...

once in a while, its good to hear people tell u that they appreciate the music you are doing...
cause once in a while, i stop, and look in the mirror and ask myself.. "what am i doing.. why am i writing so much, singing so much etc"

that mail made my day
thanks elise :)
hope you find the right one soon enough :)

i have given away my last one, almost two years to somebody who never ever loved me back.
now it feels awfully weird entertaining the thought of me liking someone else other than her.

but like i was telling kim... its time we all move on...

then comes the problem.
i don't know how it feels to like someone.
and even if i do, i don't know what to be thinking, or what to do and say....

how do you know if she's the right one?
and if you are not sure...
do you just watch her fall for someone else? or do u tell her u think u may be attracted to her?

its at this time when i realize how complicated love is...

my ideal girl...
plays an instrument,
sings,
is sweet,
and well mannered and lovable...

but even when an ideal one comes along...
how do you know if u're attracted to her bcoz of her "ideal attributes"
or beacuse u genuinely want to spend more time knowing her?

okay john.
its 340am.
u're probably just blabbering

step 1 to letting go of the past: paint my room.
step 2: time to put all the photos aside.

and what if i think i've found the girl of my dreams?

step 1:..... feel lost...
step 2:..... feel confused....
step 3:.....just not do anything.

is there a right..and a wrong way to doing things?
or is it just an inner voice inside me saying "john. u've made so mani mistakes. this might just be another one of your mistakes"

i think i'm secretly afraid inside..

Fun-filled, enriching music lessons: My Portfolio

Fun-filled, enriching music lessons: My Portfolio

ahh.. supposed to be out at timbre with the guys now...
but i'm really really sleepy...
and i had so much to settle at challenger just now about my desktop...

and its weird...
but i'm online for a reason :S

counting down; crossing my fingers

one more paper to go...
then the dreaded awaiting of results...

i'm feeling so much worse off than previous semesters...
and i've got so much to worry after my exams...

i hope my head's fine after the scan..

things to do after the exams:

1. start jogging/squash/soccer...
2. wii/guitar hero sessions with friends...
3. winning 11 sessions with the guys..
4.buy a new desktop...
5. go for LASIK...
6. visit Rocher more often...
7. repair ventilation fan for my laptop...
8. paint my room...
9. continue furnishing my room...
10. do up my music website
11. record lots of new songs and videos
12. find gigs to perform in...
13. get a job...
14. find a new drama serial to be addicted to
15. weekly sunday soccer
16. research for music colleges to go to after graduation...
17. find interesting choir songs for pss choir
18. coordinate finale for pjc's anniversary finale
19. full body medical checkup..
20. diagnose whats wrong with my head...

things may not turn out the way i want them to be.... but i'm happy...

i have learnt that dreams will never become reality...
that is a long known fact...

i dreamt of a girl yesterday.
i've known her secondary school.
it wasn't the first time.
and i know it wouldn't be the last...

but when i wake up, sit up and think..
i'm just glad she's happy...
i'm glad she's doing great...

thanks for the two replies that night when i was about to break down from studying e-learning...
your messages calmed me down a lot...

The Swine Flu is dangerous because it spreads in densely populated areas...
places like movie theatres are rather high risk places to go to...

which reminds me...
exam halls are also dangerous
all remaining papers should be cancelled and students should be graded based on whatever they have done throughout the semester.

help fight swine...