squash session with javin just now was fun.
but not the after effects. i can hardly move my hips now, think i just suffered a recurring slipped disc.
now. how do i walk tmr.

sukiya

try sukiya at marina square.
sukiyaki steamboat.
u won't regret it.

went there with qing and mike today,
and i tell you, it was the most fulfilling steamboat i've ever eaten.
nicely sliced beef, thin,
fresh mushrooms,
sweet tasting soup broth...

i give it 5 stars.

people grow through pain, i'm no exception.
now its time to channel those feelings into something more meaningful, like getting my essays done, or songs written.

i deserve it..

here i am, struggling to complete my NM proj, and i have GEM proj due this coming monday, not forgettin SC proj due nxt monday.

think its bad enough?

no, i still have Science of Music essay due nxt wk, and a MIDI project due as well.

but no use complaining.
coz.
i asked for it!

i've been slacking so much for the entire semester....
leavin everything to the last minute.

thats what i've become recently.
a procrastinator.
ah well...

i finally got my ass down to write a new song.
its been 2 years since i last felt proud of any song i wrote.

this is going to be a start i hope.
thanks to all those who listened and helped out with constructive comments online! :))

have you ever felt this weird inverse relationship between distance and closeness.

the closer you get to a person, the further you feel apart from him/her.

what an irony...

500 days with summer.

nice movie.

non typical.

realistic.

its amazing how hollywood films usually overplays the whole notion of love, making it all so sweet and wonderful..

when in reality, IT ISN'T.

so watch this movie.

its unconventional,but real.

love doesn't really exist.

neither does fate, or mere coincidences.

the problem with me is i dont take rejection very well.

thats something i'm trying to change.

maybe its my ego.

d used to hate my ego.

met up with eileen today for inglorious bastards.

surprisingly lots to talk about!

never knew we could just go on and on and on about things.

and i found out that her sister knows ewe.

meanwhile, i'm confused about a lot of things.

books, with empty pages, are unreadable.

or maybe u're an encyclopedia with too many words to understand.

or maybe its just me who's stupid...

but i'm trying u know...

but i'm just an ordinary person.

i don't know which way to go.

anyway, i've got a recent favourite song.

for the first time in a long time.. i've had enough of songs that go "pokerrr face, or just dance or imsoniaaaaa"

download asher book's someone to watch over me.

it encurtails the beauty of simple words, with a simple melody.

something that i haven't been able to find of late.

like what joce told me.

mebbe the songs i write, the inspirations, come from what i've gone thru.

and what i've gone thru lately,

isn't really the nicest things to put into a song...

and i dreamt of dixie that day.

it was freakishly realistic. so much that i actually sleepwalked out to the toilet, and back to sleep without knowing and my mum saw me :S

lets see..
3 assignments due this wk,
1 mid term test.

but hey! its e-learning wk. which means i go back to school only once this wk for tutorials, and the rest is just online

(which then gives me another reason to slack)
this sucks... :

knn.

some people are assholes.

and i wonder why i even bother.

fark you.

like hello. university students should have EQ shoudln't they?

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and yes you.

mebbe you ought to be more sensitive.

i'm not feeling-less huh.

i'm human.

even if its not your fault that this is happening and u didnt cause it.

i feel stupid for everything.

for being so affected.

for feeling so out of this world now.

it meant something to me u know.

doin everything for u.

it meant alot.

its 430am and so much is runnin thru and i just cant sleep.

it has been such a hectic day today...

from waking up at 730am for a second life class (which was awfully retarded), to going to the market, baking (and eventually burning my brownies), rushing down for tutorials coz i'm late from baking,

den jurong point, shopping, getting the right stuffs (looking really retarded going in the same shop 4 times alone), dinner, strollin along boat quay all the way till reachin home at 1am..

surprising i was never tired until i reached home.

and now it feels like the whole world is spinnin. all i need to do is close my eyes and i actually can fall asleep in front of the computer

den again, all this is worth it i guess

i haven't done something so unconditional for a long time.

i haven't sang a birthday song like this before

nor prepared a night like this.

i draw a circle around your name

not a heart

because in my world, hearts break.

they break, disappear and hurt.

circles go on and on and on forever.

and thats what you should get.