so..
should i study in NIE and teach music in secondary schools? (cheaper option)
go overseas study music and come back be a conductor? (super expensive, and a waste of another 3 yrs)
or what should i really do with life?
make use of my bachelor of arts and work in an advertising firm? pr firm?
sell insurance? and teach music privately?
don't i just hate it...
i'm in a phase of life where i have to make a decision.
i love teaching my choir.
but to get professionally certified overseas would cost like 300k for a total of 4 additional years of education.
and the stupid singapore system doesnt offer any diplomas for such expertise...
urghs.................................
26 January 2010
22 January 2010
i'm too tired to write cause i've been out since 11am and its 3am and i just got back.
but heres a brief summary in case i forget what to update on in the next few days.
cca fair, choir, i'm proud of you.
never been prouder.
watching you guys sing lady gaga, taylor swift and just run under the hot sun trying to pull in so many sec1s to choir.
that itself, set my mind at ease.
cause i know u guys care... and u guys actually bother about my "i want 20 sec1s in my choir next year" ambition.
fail or not, i'm proud of you all. each and everyone.
kbox with mag hsin eugene was really fun
except i thought it was ridiculous to pay 35 bucks per person for 3 hours of singing.
in fact, the price was damn over the hill.
but yup, photo whoring was fun, so was singing, and supper, and the horrible jokes we made in the car with michael when we met him for supper
:D
but heres a brief summary in case i forget what to update on in the next few days.
cca fair, choir, i'm proud of you.
never been prouder.
watching you guys sing lady gaga, taylor swift and just run under the hot sun trying to pull in so many sec1s to choir.
that itself, set my mind at ease.
cause i know u guys care... and u guys actually bother about my "i want 20 sec1s in my choir next year" ambition.
fail or not, i'm proud of you all. each and everyone.
kbox with mag hsin eugene was really fun
except i thought it was ridiculous to pay 35 bucks per person for 3 hours of singing.
in fact, the price was damn over the hill.
but yup, photo whoring was fun, so was singing, and supper, and the horrible jokes we made in the car with michael when we met him for supper
:D
21 January 2010
AuditionSea
i think i'm addicted to AUDITIONSEA.
its a fantastic game, and as much as i never believed in making online friends, i actually managed to make this bunch of really awesome friends who are really fun to talk to online.
Try it!
(And no, this is not a virus. i'm john and i'm typing this)
www.auditionsea.com
download and play 12party mode! :D
AND NO, this is not a kids game! i have met 20 plus uni students on it! :P
its a fantastic game, and as much as i never believed in making online friends, i actually managed to make this bunch of really awesome friends who are really fun to talk to online.
Try it!
(And no, this is not a virus. i'm john and i'm typing this)
www.auditionsea.com
download and play 12party mode! :D
AND NO, this is not a kids game! i have met 20 plus uni students on it! :P
14 January 2010
late night supper, poker.
detong, michael, james, marvin,
we've got to stop unhealthy suppers at 2am in the morning.
the fat is accumulating and i'm feelin awful
and because of that, i'm pacing around my room trying to burn the calories i just put on from that plate of fried beehoon.
:(
EMO.
13 January 2010
as the days go by, i guess i'm beginning to learn little bits about myself that i never ever took great notice of ...
like how i cant stand mischievious kids in shopping centres, or mothers who turn a blind eye to such behavior
or people who talk loudly on phones, or blast mp3s from their phones
cars that are modified so much so that their engines rumble when "HELLO, u are just driving a mitsubushi or toyota, not a damn ferrari"
how i think girls in a simple tank top and shorts look the hottest than those who spend hours dressing up and drawing eyeliners all over their face
how i would choose to have a cosy home cooked dinner at home rather than a extravagant dinner in a posh restaurant.
how i'm secretly insecure and worried that the people around me dislike me, so i start picking up various signs and signals and alter my behavior according to that
like how i cant stand mischievious kids in shopping centres, or mothers who turn a blind eye to such behavior
or people who talk loudly on phones, or blast mp3s from their phones
cars that are modified so much so that their engines rumble when "HELLO, u are just driving a mitsubushi or toyota, not a damn ferrari"
how i think girls in a simple tank top and shorts look the hottest than those who spend hours dressing up and drawing eyeliners all over their face
how i would choose to have a cosy home cooked dinner at home rather than a extravagant dinner in a posh restaurant.
how i'm secretly insecure and worried that the people around me dislike me, so i start picking up various signs and signals and alter my behavior according to that
11 January 2010
my choir, school's starting, and life's picking up pace.
had my first choir session at pioneer today...
and i set myself a vision for this year:
"to make choir fun, more fun than it already is, yet provide the students with ample knowledge to advance vocally."
its hard though, really, when you have a group of students who chatter amongst themselves, and appear to not listen to you even though u're shouting ur lungs out and going crazy.
and teaching the choir is really harming my voice. i get horrid sore throats from shouting, hoping that even if not all of them listen, at least i get three or four students listening and learning from me.
gotta admit this sucks though. i just lack that authoratative charisma to make everyone listen to me when i speak. i'm not fierce enough.
and its not that i'm not trying...
but they're simply not listening.
i arrange a lady gaga song, hoping that that would liven things up and they would have fun,
but yes, granted they have fun, i still feel that most of them dont listen to me at all when i speak.
urghs.
---
school's starting tomorrow.
its a 6 module semester for me, so that means crazy schedules, waking up early, going home late, etc.
and if i'm going to work towards my target of earning and saving up sufficient money by the end of 2010, den i'm going to have to work doubly hard teaching my vocal/keyboard classes.
---
watched the sneaks of its complicated yesterday.
hilarious show i would say...
fully epitomizes the whole idea of having "Friends with benefits".
and its disturbing to know that more people are having sex at younger ages nowadays.
shldn't that be sth thats left for someone special and for marriage? :
and i set myself a vision for this year:
"to make choir fun, more fun than it already is, yet provide the students with ample knowledge to advance vocally."
its hard though, really, when you have a group of students who chatter amongst themselves, and appear to not listen to you even though u're shouting ur lungs out and going crazy.
and teaching the choir is really harming my voice. i get horrid sore throats from shouting, hoping that even if not all of them listen, at least i get three or four students listening and learning from me.
gotta admit this sucks though. i just lack that authoratative charisma to make everyone listen to me when i speak. i'm not fierce enough.
and its not that i'm not trying...
but they're simply not listening.
i arrange a lady gaga song, hoping that that would liven things up and they would have fun,
but yes, granted they have fun, i still feel that most of them dont listen to me at all when i speak.
urghs.
---
school's starting tomorrow.
its a 6 module semester for me, so that means crazy schedules, waking up early, going home late, etc.
and if i'm going to work towards my target of earning and saving up sufficient money by the end of 2010, den i'm going to have to work doubly hard teaching my vocal/keyboard classes.
---
watched the sneaks of its complicated yesterday.
hilarious show i would say...
fully epitomizes the whole idea of having "Friends with benefits".
and its disturbing to know that more people are having sex at younger ages nowadays.
shldn't that be sth thats left for someone special and for marriage? :
09 January 2010
it hasn't been easy at all.
but i'm able to now say her name without feeling much.
this chapter of my life, shld thus be closed.
2 years of pining for a girl who in the first place, i shldn't even be pining for..
thats 2 years of wasting alot of precious time feeling all emotional, and shutting my door on many other people and things.
the past, is the past.
i'm ready to step out of it. finally.
06 January 2010
school's starting,
and in some way, i can't wait to get back to school.
i've become very homely.
and its hard for me to even believe it.
i'm contented with:
poker with the guys, hanging out and playing mahjong, playin squash with detong, sunday soccer, having to teach my wonderful choir, and being with my family.
and i love my buddy. we've known each other since secondary school, in fact, i've known loads of ppl since secondary school, but u're one of the only few who stuck with me throughout.
if u're even reading this, u know who u are, thank you for always being there.
it just takes a whole new meaning to jason mraz's song:
lucky i'm in love with my best friend.
cause being friends, i know u'll never leave me, and u know i'll never leave u.
we'll never ever be subjected to any quarrels or any heartbreaks or break ups.
and u mean the most to me.
-----
meanwhile, i still owe myself an entry on 2009 and the transition to 2010 with my new year resolutions.
i love 2009 because.
i got to travel to bkk with mich and xiaoting and i had a wonderful time
i got to conduct my choir and lead them to SYF... and i've spent so many ups and downs with this choir...
i got to attend arts camp and i got to know a few wonderful friends, josheen, jonchong, ewe..
i made new friends, fostered old friendships, learnt how to be a better person.
and i look to 2010 because.
i know i've got to stop living in my past. no more thinking of ds. and emoing and wallowing over self pity.
i've got to move on somehow and stop thinking of her, who evidently doesnt need me in her life at all.
i'm not even sure if i ever want to be in another relationship, because 2 years being single has taught me a lot and brought me several insights into what i really want.
i'm graduating from NUS, and i hope i can study music.
i'm an adult, officially, soon enough at least, and i've got to start planning my future and figuring out how i'm goin to earn my dream salary of 8000 a month.
and also figure out how to be an even better person than 2009.
no more bad habits. no more procrastinating.
and in some way, i can't wait to get back to school.
i've become very homely.
and its hard for me to even believe it.
i'm contented with:
poker with the guys, hanging out and playing mahjong, playin squash with detong, sunday soccer, having to teach my wonderful choir, and being with my family.
and i love my buddy. we've known each other since secondary school, in fact, i've known loads of ppl since secondary school, but u're one of the only few who stuck with me throughout.
if u're even reading this, u know who u are, thank you for always being there.
it just takes a whole new meaning to jason mraz's song:
lucky i'm in love with my best friend.
cause being friends, i know u'll never leave me, and u know i'll never leave u.
we'll never ever be subjected to any quarrels or any heartbreaks or break ups.
and u mean the most to me.
-----
meanwhile, i still owe myself an entry on 2009 and the transition to 2010 with my new year resolutions.
i love 2009 because.
i got to travel to bkk with mich and xiaoting and i had a wonderful time
i got to conduct my choir and lead them to SYF... and i've spent so many ups and downs with this choir...
i got to attend arts camp and i got to know a few wonderful friends, josheen, jonchong, ewe..
i made new friends, fostered old friendships, learnt how to be a better person.
and i look to 2010 because.
i know i've got to stop living in my past. no more thinking of ds. and emoing and wallowing over self pity.
i've got to move on somehow and stop thinking of her, who evidently doesnt need me in her life at all.
i'm not even sure if i ever want to be in another relationship, because 2 years being single has taught me a lot and brought me several insights into what i really want.
i'm graduating from NUS, and i hope i can study music.
i'm an adult, officially, soon enough at least, and i've got to start planning my future and figuring out how i'm goin to earn my dream salary of 8000 a month.
and also figure out how to be an even better person than 2009.
no more bad habits. no more procrastinating.
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