birthday wishes

my birthday's coming..

here's my wishlist. which is kinda ridiculous actually but i guess it just means i'm coming of age and the things i want are getting more and more unaffordable...:

1. a manutd jersey
2. 2nd hand honda jazz
3. 16gig iphone 3gs
4. a nice cap
5. that someone special.
6. mr bump from the 7-eleven collectibles
7. another bag to carry to school
8. new loafers

shall update it when i think of more wants.

if anybody has any qualms or doubts over the beauty of acapella music.
here's a video to change your opinion.



i'm goin to download this video editing software and do one video like this soon... (Reminds myself)

NUS Jazz Band - Treat Her Like A Lady

watchin the jazz ensemble perform yesterday brought back memories on alot of performances i did through my life.

and it certainly made me pause and think of all the fun i had.

but yes, it jut renewed my passion in stepping up on stage again.

its been quite some time.

so i'm goin to source for opportunities to perform once again.

i've been doing too much teaching i swear.

choir, students at home, students outside, etc.

and i'm reliving my childhood by getting addicted to purchasing those tiny capsules from 7-eleven that consists of the Little Miss Series handphone chains...

i guess some times in life you get sucked into doing crazy things like this.

:)

and i hope you liked little miss sunshine.

unconditional.

i remember talking about how i thought D looked good in anything,
even in my horribly oversized ugly designed school tshirt.

i think thats what love should be about.
unconditional, and un-superficial.
and i remembered that feeling again today...

sometimes you feel so distant.
other times you feel so close.

its 415am. i should be sleeping.
but yes, there's so much weighing on my mind.

how do i do this?
how do i say what i want to say?

and yes, i have an assignment due in 3 hours.
and i can't even paraphrase a simple sentence properly.

dreams...

i have dreams for my choir...
that they are going to all leave choir with something.
be it knowing how to sing, or knowing how to read notes, or how to blend, perform, beatbox, dance, whateverrr....

and i have plans...
to totally revolutionize how choirs in singapore schools are...

but i kinda know its pointless..
i mean..every choir works the same way...
nice blending, vertical sounds, smiling faces, etc.

why can't there be a hip choir...
something like how the choir in 'sister act' sang...
or those choirs you see in mainstream musicals like hairspray.. or sound of music...
something like this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nqp89bkFe8k

i mean.. who cares about pitching and vowel sounds if singing in a choir was thattt fun...

but yahh...
its impossible..
or at least,
its impossible in singapore..
SADLY...

so i shall continue working with what i've got and hoping that...
i'll be able to use traditional methods to guide my choir to a medal in the next SYF...

(but den again, imagine if i did this for SYF). hahaa...

you make me feel..

its not very john, to be bothered by something like this.

but thats the problem,

you make me feel and behave in a way that i never thought i would.

randoms.

1. the 3 hours i spent under the sun today at raffles park waitin for the straits times car lucky draw alone has given me nothing, but a tan, and a worse cough and blocked nose.

2. i haven't eaten much for the past 24 hours. and the weighing scales say that i've lost 3kgs. which makes me wonder how much food i actually intake per day if not eating can make me lose 3 kgs...

3. sometimes i come online. and i really want to talk to you. but something's stopping me from clicking on your nickname and msging u... and i can give myself umpteen reasons why i shouldn't take the initiative and say hi...

4. its sunday tmr, and then school officially starts with tutorials and lectures at full force. i'm not ready for it at all.

5. i'm tempted to run out in the rain now, despite my flu. i like the sound of thunder when it comes on at night... and the sound of rain splattering on my window panes is giving me some form of comfort and making me feel less alone.

i'm down with a bad bout of flu again.
and its only proving to be gettin worse by the second.
took one whole lot of tablets last night before goin to sleep,
in a hope that today would be better.

but nein...
its still the same...

random ramblings
but yes
i think i'm beginnin to not like the idea of constantly taking the initiative...

belinda says:

and then it leaves u feeling super empty afterwards

you nailed it sis. thats how i feel :|

i can't help but feel a sudden feeling of emptiness..
and what i've been doin for the past hour has had me convinced that i'm losing myself..

hearin from you now would definitely brighten my really depressing day.

now i know how much i rely on my GPS.
got ewe lost yesterday. or rather vice-versa.
that girl told me to keep going straight.
so i was actually at woodlands already, den i continued going straight and returned back to bukit panjang, and bukit timah (where we INITIALLY left from)...

directions aside,
i'm currently still struggling to come to grips with the macbook..
i'm not even chatting on MSN as regularly.
and i need microsoft office, anyone has extra license keys for me?

i'm sick.
for the umptheen time within the past few mths.
i can't even talk. had to talk to my choir with whatever voice i had left.. and now i'm home without a single decibel of voice left in me.

did i tell u i'm really disappointed with the kids?
i had hopes for them
i bothered to teach them basic musical terms.
and out of the whole bunch of 25, only 5 or 6 passed the simple test i set for them.
now all i can hope is that they'll buck up.
i need the choir to move on. i want to conduct a choir from scratch and guide them to a medal.

i'm off to bed first. its 430pm and i am feelin so light headed that i suspect someone drugged the water i drank just now.

and watching "the proposal" yesterday got me thinking about marriage in a very different light..
and it kind of made me realise that the only person i can ever imagine marrying is my best buddy.
which kind of makes sense doesn't it?
its so hard to find someone that understands you that much..

fuzzywuzzy

its been a long time since i feel embarassed "shy' saying sth...

and its been a long time since i took the MRT to send someone home...

feels kinda fuzzyyish inside..

which brings me on to the next topic.

i finally got my Macbook Pro

gonna upgrade its ram and steal microsoft and adobe from mich...

meanwhile, i'm still gettin used to the mac. 

totally lagging while chatting online.

sometimes i feel so lost and confused about everything thats happening around me...
sometimes i get so puzzled by own thoughts
i amaze myself at my lack of self awareness at times...

i don't even know what i'm thinking all of a sudden...

i'm becoming too quiet for my own good.
so whats the real me?..

the crappy one who seems extremely sociable to strangers?
or the one who feels uncomfortable when he interacts with others?

i walk along FASS and sometimes when i see a friend walking the opposite direction,
i hesitate to say hello.

whats happening?

this is my confession.

for 2 yrs i've lived in the shadows of my r'ship with dixie.
and its time.
i'm ready to step out of it.

singapore idol!

reminds me of the first time i auditioned when i was like way younger, and wayy more raw in singing...
ironically, now that i'm older and better, i'm thinking "heyy. mebbe i'm too old for this kind of shit"...
and den i'll go "maybe if i looked better, was taller, thinner, den maybe i would join"...
"mebbe if i could play the guitar better i would go join"...

but heyy... its goin to take a lot of maybes before i decide to participate in any of these singing competitions againnn...
so yupp, i'll stick to my dream of one day becoming a producer to groom singapore's next biggest thing :D

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which brings me to the point of this post!
my NS MDC buddy charles wong is in singapore ido1!
saw him auditioning yesterday on tv and he got thru!
so for those who are reading this, do support him and get to know this amazing talent :)

he has always been fantastic when we were in the same acapella grp last time... entertaining our audience with his wonderful renditions of beatboxing... and he sings and plays the guitar at pubs n stuffs too!
and i always thought he could make it far if he was more confident of himself in the past!

so yupp! do support him!
visit www.charles-wong.blogspot.com or search for user beatboxerstitch in youtube to hear his covers of all the latest hits! :)

go charles! :)

school is starting..
and i just started to have fun in the past few wks.. :

theres sth abt singapore thats making me feel kinda sian now.

my 4 days in bkk made me realise that singapore kind of lacks a night life.
granted that bkk's night markets make the roads look really messy and rowdy..
but at least there's some vibrance and life...

whats the use of having pasar malams that have to close by 10pm daily. and shops in nicely landscaped areas which close in the evenings?
and shopping centres that sell the same expensive stuffs every single day...

mebbe i'm just blabbering now coz my fever after coming back frm bkk means that i've been self quarantining myself since i came home.
and being cooped up at home with the dizzying side effects from tamiflu isn't exactly the best thing in the world.